May

Well little one, it's been a month. You sure aren't making things easy on me. I feel like crap most of the time. I've been told some people have it worse than me, and that it should end in a month or two. Fun. I've had a chance to research the local birth centers and found one I'm really comfortable with. It has a really fancy bedroom designed to look country, with western art on the walls, and a rustic queen size bed. I like it a lot. It's got a birth tub too, which makes me really happy. Your dad and I went on a tour of it, and decided that's where we want to have you.

Everyone we've told so far is really excited for us. I still feel like it's not real, like you're not really here, but I know you will be soon enough. My intellectual side has kicked in, and I've started researching everything I need to know in order to be ready for you. It's kind of overwhelming, but it does give me something to do in my down time at work :). I think your dad is a little overwhelmed too, though he keeps saying "we have plenty of time!" I keep going back and forth between being scared about what life is going to be like once you're here, and excited to have a new adventure. It's weird. You weren't expected, but we are excited to be able to plan for your arrival. I'm anxious to find out if you're a boy or a girl. I'll love you either way, but there are an awful lot of boys in my family already. *hint hint* :P. Just kidding, I kind of have a feeling you might be a boy, but I guess we'll find out in a few months. :)

Your dad took me out to lunch, and to the mall for my first mother's day. The restaurant gave me a pink carnation, and dad bought me chocolate covered strawberries. We went to see a movie too. It was a really relaxing day. One that both of us needed, I think. I'm sure we'll need more like it in the months to come, but it was really fun to have people recognize me as a mom, with a baby to celebrate. You wanna know why? Because as surreal as you still seem, and as crazy as this journey is going to be, you are already a perfect child. I know I will love you more once you are here, but I do love already. I don't love how being pregnant feels, but I love knowing that you are growing inside of me, and that we'll get to meet you in just a few months. Keep growing little one, and we'll meet before you know it.

Love,
Mom